Tuesday 2 February 2016

Back to life, back to reality

In 10 hours I will be back at work. 19 months off, 602 days....

Surprisingly I'm not feeling nervous (yet), I keep getting waves of sadness, the last time I was at work was the day I was diagnosed, some what blissfully unaware, I was waiting for my biopsy results but didnt know for sure..we were thinking about a holiday later that year and planning maybe to have a baby....

So much has changed since that day. Urgh. I'm not the same person I was.

I'm hoping I will fall straight back into it, I'm hoping it will tire me out so I will start sleeping, I'm hoping it gives me something else to talk about, I hope it makes me forget all about C if only for a few hours, I'm hoping it makes me feel a bit normal again .. Dare I say it... Like me again.

I'm not looking forward to the alarm clock going off....