Wednesday, 29 November 2017
Wednesday, 6 September 2017
So today's the day I get my expanders swapped for actual, real, permanent boobs!! Finally - ??? Days since they were chopped off and thrown in the bin (hopefully insinerated if I'm honest, bastard boobs) anyway today is the day!! Whoop whoop !!
It also happens to be the day that Arron goes on his stag, naturally, and so he is out of the country for 4 days.... good job I have my girls and my dad.
Speaking of dad he'll be here any second to take me so I'd best hurry up - I'm trying to do the whole I have no makeup on (=it's taken me 45 minutes of make up to perfect this look and I still look like shit...)
So dads gone, I've seen the nurse, anaesthetist and my surgeon (boo hiss the fit Reg won't be assisting today) but I now have 2 consultants operating on me - princessey or what! I have asked the age old question about taking more fat than they need (and suggested maybe a little (a lot) off the thighs, knees... arms.... chin...) and I got the standard nervous laugh reply, IM DEADLY SERIOUS! I have a wedding dress to wear in exactly 85 days, plus an abroad hen weekend with a load of skinny bitches...
So that's me done until after the op, did someone say general anaesthetic (whoop whoop)....
Ouch. No actually Jesus f-ing wept this is painful, have I forgotten how painful all the other times have been? Has my pain threshold disintegrated? Or is it because I'm massively overdue morphine, and no one will hurry the hell up with it - obvs not the nurses they are fabulous,it's the bloody doctors probably pretending that their all busy and shit. I NEED THE DRUGS. Ok now I'm being very princessey but I am also crying in pain whilst trying to hold it together because it's visiting time and I'm really missing the boy,
Fabulous fabulous nurse got hold of a doctor and I've had a nice blast of the good stuff so now I just have to relax and wait for mom and Hollie to get here.
But first it's dinner time... yum, what on earth.... I'm not a fussy eater, at all, but come on....
I can't decide if it's meant to be custard or some sort of a custard jelly ?? Think I'll stick to the tea....
So my visitors have gone, was lovely to see them -mom Hollie and Lolaah, and I've been stocked up with Diet Coke, crisps and picnic chocolate bars - yum. I now have that nice floaty feeling but the pain is starting to kick in on my hips from the fat transfer aka lipo, I'm loving the profile bed though - legs elevated not a swollen ankle in sight!!
Might go and get changed out of this gown and put my PJ's on, and obviously get a few pictures ....
They're so much softer than the expanders were, they feel like actual boobs! Never had bruising like this before though but I guess they've pulled the expanders out and then squeezed the new implants in, I can't imagine that they're very delicate when they do it ...
I'd forgotten how painful the fat transfer was, the bruising is already pretty bad, bad enough that I can't lie on my side anymore and my hips are soooooo swollen and rock hard....
But who cares - I've made a new best friend in the form of the night care assistant, she's kindly lent me him-
So now I can have a proper amount of tea rather than 3 mouthfuls ... arh maybe she's given it me so that I stop using the bell to ask for more tea.... who cares I'm happy
I might try and get a bit of sleep, the woman opposite went down to theatre not long ago so everyone will be woken up upon her return .....
No chance of getting ANY sleep. Between the nurses chatting/opening and closing doors as loud as they possibly can, the poor lady next to me who can't get in and out of her bed on her own and the bloody mattress that beeps every 5 minutes for what seems like an hour, I'm lying here willing someone to come and ask if I want a drink ...
To make matters worse it took 3 trips out of bed and pressing my buzzer twice to finally get some analgesia - 1 3/4 hours to be precise. Man it's painful, I'm nackered and I miss the boy. Yep moody pants are officially in situ.
God bless the day nurse (Kath?) she's amazing, sorted out my pain relief got the pharmacist to come and sort my TTO's and turned that bloody mattress off!!!!! Amen to that!! Might get a bit of sleep now until it's time to go home...
Or I could stay awake and talk to the other fascinating women on the ward with me, I think I'll do that, sleep is over rated anyway, and the lady opposite me got married 2 weeks Ago so I need to hear all of the details and get some hints and tips....
I'm home!! Well at mom and dads with lolaah and George and Barbara, just waiting for my Rhian to come and pick me up and get me home, can't wait to see her face and spoon in bed.
Sunday 10th September (very late and feeling very nicely strange from the meds)
I've had the BEST weekend!! Loads of wedding stuff sorted, have been looked after by mom and my girls and now I'm drinking tea and eating walnut, date and cherry cake in bed (thanks Grams), and thankfully I've had all my meds (as you can see in the picture below)..
Saturday was spent doing wedding crafts ( I watched mainly whilst being waited on - standard) Rhian did an amazing job with the table plan / name places / table numbers and the other girls have dresses up my jars with lace and various other bits and bobs - I love them! Then the bridesmaids tried on their dresses*- all looking gorgeous!! We even had help from the smalls
*one bridesmaid missing 😢
I was well and truly spoilt ❤️
But to be fair the bruising is pretty painful and looks horrendous, hopefully this is it at it's worst and from now on it'll get better...
Sleeping is pretty much impossible even with the medication...
I am starting to feel better, well Hollie painted my toenails so all is well with the world once again phew. I just can't wait until I can lie on my side! I need to hurry up and heel - my hen party is just over 2 weeks away - I need these bruises to be gone and the swelling wants to do one too, literally can't wait to get Edna (my flamingo pool buddy) and float about in the pool, sun on my face, gin in my hand .... bliss
But for now I have loads of wedding stuff to do, well that's when I'm not distracted by box sets.. and bloody online shopping, must stop shopping ... £300 SSP does not go far ... not sure I'm ready to delete my ASOS/Zara/Next/Topshop apps just yet - thank god BooHoo don't have an app... although my details are remembered when I go on the website via Safari - totally not my fault..
So hopefully that's it, all done - apart from nipples and possible hysterectomy but might give myself next year off, wow I have boobs!! I'm sure I'll write more especially once the dressings are off but for now, wow!! 🌈
Friday, 28 July 2017
Not sure if I'm excited or nervous, maybe a bit of both but today's the first pump up! I have no idea what to expect - I'm guessing it's instant, well duh it's not a gradual thing is it (realised what I just wrote!!). I'm going on my own so big girl pants on.....
Done! Wasnt as painful as I thought, but then it's only been a couple of hours, I saw my lovely surgeon (I have 2 now - they do a side each), everything is planned precisely - he doesn't want anyone else touching them and wants the same team each time so the schedule is pretty tight (I wonder how annoyed they'll be when I tell them that I might be going on holiday to surprise my sister for her 30th...) He played with the magnet to find the port (I've done the same at home) and literally stuck a huge needle in the top of my tit and inflated!! I'm already LOVING them!! And yes it was instant ... and they're plasters not stick on nipples (cheers Arron)...
Yup I went to teneriffe so I missed my next pump up, but in my defence I needed the sun and a pool .... and cava, lots of cava, it was sooo bloody nice not having to worry about being flat and checking if my bikini top was covering the scars the whole time - any who I rocked up to my next appointment with Wendy, same again only slightly more this time, ouch, ouch, ouch.
I was a model patient, I let the student nurse get involved and have a feel and in return my lovely surgeon let me have a go myself (obvs not on my own but let me pump up some others). Actually starting to look like boobs now !! Arron keeps having to do a double take, well actually it's a bit of a joke now because every time he works away I have bigger boobs when he gets home..
And again!! So now they're bloody massive!! And they literally don't move AT ALL!! As in I can jump up and don't and they don't budge!! Some of my clothes are tighter and I can just about zip my uniform up! But i feel soooo much better in myself, I feel like I can stand straight again and my shoulders aren't hunched over trying to hide non boobs, it's amazing, painful, but amazing!!
Amen. Thank god, they are officially enormous!! I never thought I would like big boobs but I'm loving it!! I know my "proper" implants won't be this big but I'm honestly not bothered in the slightest about them looking fake, they're amazing!!!! I mean look!!!
I need to seriously put some work into my new available personal space, as in I keep twatting them on door frames/ furniture/ car doors and it's very painful !!
To be fair obviously they're fake, they look and feel fake but they make clothes look so much better, even if my nieces refer to them as rocks or stones!!
Not long to go now either until they're swapped for permanent ones - 7th September all going well! Eeeekkk
Wednesday, 10 May 2017
Tuesday 9th May 2017
Today Is my surgery day!!!! By the time I go to bed tonight I will have something that resembles breasts and will no longer have a concave chest... oh and I get to have a general anaesthetic- all I do is win win win!!